Headaches

I feel very stupid working here loh.. coz I really catch no balls on a lot of things.. a bit zi bei, coz dun understand this, dun understand that.. then boss at home shake leg throw one email over why never do this, why never do that... very frustrating... a bit lost at work le.. izzit me too stupid to catch up?? But a lot of things i really dunno.. like how to talk to supplier or customer, how to arrange this arrange that.. just talk with a supplier to verify something... then I tot okay.. the china lady verify le.. then turned out not verified.. coz she was telling me something else then boss take over loh.. after that I dunno wat happen le.. maybe I'm not flexible enough?? Due to inexperience?? but how long to be experienced.. i wonder.. 2 mths?? 3 mths?? if not I'm going crazy soon.. T_T.. began to wonder probation can pass or not.. and half hoping probation won't pass.. coz I a bit buay tahan the place and the way people do things around here.. but if cannot pass.. very mulu rite?? how how... now the working hours very long.. can't even upgrade.. can't study, can't go belly dancing.. can't this can't that.. no life le... is this normal?? *faint* just recover from fever.. actually the funny part is.. i dunno i got fever.. actually fever for 3 days, then i see doctor on 3rd day.. haaa.. siao hor.. but got mc also cannot take.. coz still under probation.. later cut pay...